My meditation sessions were interrupted by a house move, but I still maintained a very strong sense of their importance. I will soon have a very daily reminder to focus on what's really important, as I'm shaving off my hair today.
I want to take a moment to be clear as to why I'm doing this, and what it means to me.
I'm shaving my head because:
- it shows support for my sister-in-law who is undergoing chemotherapy and has lost her hair
- I am raising money for the charity she is being supported by, Penny Brohn. My donation page is at www.justgiving.com/heidihollis
- I want to give myself a release from people's expectations of me, of my own past patterns -- do a bit of starting fresh
- I want a daily reminder that in the end, 'It's not about me.' There is humility built into this act -- a shedding of appearances, a letting go of vanity, a reminder to focus on things that transcend day to day concerns -- the things that really matter like relationships, and the meaning we give to ourselves and our actions
- I want a daily reminder that taking care of my spirit is much more important than taking care of my appearance. This is about as close as I'll get to being a nun!
I am somewhat fearful that my history will follow me more than I wish it to, but that too is part of the journey. I have noticed recently how much my vocal/emotional pattern sends messages of expectation to others -- that I'm coming to them already expecting they will do what I want. It's not all about me. They get to choose. And if they don't get to choose, I shouldn't be the factor that inhibits them.
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